Civic Duty-DONE & afterword

So going home the day of the final verdict was the same as going home the day before. Police, unmarked cars. That "please God, let me just get home" feeling. I was so glad to be finished I can't tell you. I got home and of course Lisa already knew, she gets to read and watch the news. Then I started reading the links document Lisa made for me. I was so grateful that the jury came to the verdict we did. There were witnesses that REALLY would have cinched it but we weren't allowed to hear at the last minute, there were more people dead and the murderer was paid by the defendant to do the killing. No wonder people were scared. No wonder we had so many guards.

The justice system in this case worked, though I had many doubts during the process about specifically what we were NOT being allowed to see. There were obvious holes in the evidence that once I was able to read what happened in the courtroom when we weren't present were filled. The jurors all knew we were missing things, we had to go on the evidence we had. If we had seen what we missed, known what we were not allowed to know, I have a feeling this sentence would have been death. Hard to say, but I'm reasonably sure the vote would have swung the other way.

Reading the comments on the verdict articles, of course many people that comment like that are nut-balls anyway but its annoying that people can say things when they are totally ignorant of the process. The jury was called a bunch of cowards who wouldn't issue the death penalty, the judge a liberal who wouldn't overturn the jury's verdict and obey the law. Sheesh. Get a clue people. There is law, it is hard and fast and that is what we all go by. The judge CAN'T overturn the jury's verdict. Period. The law is the law, don't like it, change it, but don't call people who spent 11 days of their lives agonizing over this case cowards until you sit in that chair yourself.

I made Lisa take me to a Mexican food place because I wanted a margarita and while I was on the phone with LT Dan she ordered me the biggest one they had. I drank it ALL. Yep, I was sorta smashed, came home and went straight to sleep at eight. LOL

Of course now that I COULD talk about it, husband did not want me to talk about it. I think he didn't understand I needed to get it out of my system. I can't say his saying things like "you don't need to think about that any more" were really helpful. At some point we are going to have to talk about that. Lisa listened, now you have listened. I feel better, thank you.

There is much I can't say, I really don't want to come up on someone's search and I really do want to stay as anonymous as possible. You can ask me and I will answer, and that, by the way is legal, I just won't answer here in public. In the end, two kids went to buy some pot and ended up dead. That just scares the sh*t out of me, the very idea. The lack of conscience. It's stunning really.